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  • SLEEP DRAGONS – letras en español

    SLEEP DRAGONS – letras en español

    del álbum: dragones dormidos / dragones del sueño / sueño dragones / dormir dragones HIMALAYA 2 traffic island castawayskies are overcast and greypowering down these city streetswith buildings towering into me    pushing through the smoke and wind    feel their stories in my skin    an endless stream of slick machines    threatens and discomforts mesun goes down and i’m so tiredi can’t sleep, my brain is wiredthere’s a buzzing in my earsfar away and getting near    the silence is deafening    my front door isn’t welcoming    i’m crawling to the tv    none of my friends are calling   i’m doing fine        doing…


  • FOLKSONGS – letras en español

    FOLKSONGS – letras en español

    letras tradicionales interpretadas por mi LISBON twas on one whitsun wednesdayon the fourteenth day of maywe untied our anchorand so we sailed awaywhere the sun does shine most gloriousto lisbon we are boundwhere the hills and fields are daintiedwith pretty maidens round i wrote a letter to sylviefor she to understandthat i was going to leave herunto some foreign landshe said: my dearest williamthose words will break my heartoh, let us be marriedtonight before you start for ten long weeks and better, lovei’ve been with child by theeso stay at home, dear williambe kind and marry meour captain has commanded…


  • MIAHUATLAN

    MIAHUATLAN

    [español abajo] all about miahuatlanmexican town of mexican proportionsmexican police and mexican law firmswet dust sticks to mexican streetswet dust twixt our bright lit teethwarmer than the mountainsin the wind a feeble chillthe fashion is a cowboy hat and big belt buckleor a baggy t-shirt and baseball capwomen have their hair tight, and their jeans oilysometimes a gangster walks past with a haircuthere a lady flourishing flowershere a man flourishing tableclothshere a football shirt guy!here a guy with two big sacks!smells waft over of something cookingthe car rolls past, it’s the pig skin vendorA3 pig skin chicharrones, deep fried fatthat’ll…


  • The Living Sunn

    The Living Sunn

    set the night on fire like the living sunpreach me desire, put it on my tonguei’ll find my way, i’ll find my wayi’ll find my way on the run knead me with your fingers and with your thumbbreathe me with your lips and with your lunggive me this day my daily breadi can feel your brain inside my head see the midnight moon come make a movesee the midnight moonlight shining throughi’ll find my way, i’ll find my wayi’ll find a way over you / back to you prinde a noite como o sol viventepredícame o desexo, pono na miña…


  • EVERY HOUSE

    EVERY HOUSE

    every house that i flee from is a sinking shipbut there were flags in the rigging when i got to itwe sail through fog through any weatherwe raid and rave and drink together, butthe air turns cold like metal in the mouththe ship turns blind and veers to the souththe storms build up and the sail tearseveryone together saying prayersand the sailors and the chefs spot the albatrossshort-straw boy made to tell the bossfingers wouldn’t thaw under steely gazeslams the door in a violent ragewringing his hands in his little cabinsweating and reflective got him dabbingkerchief to the brow, throws…


  • MOONLIGHT ON THE SLANTROOF GREAT

    MOONLIGHT ON THE SLANTROOF GREAT

    baggage in the car, roar off, hornmotor problems, breaks are broken, gone4 hours through the dark with musicsteep hill, stalled engine, lose itslipping backwards, no gravity, crashbattered boot, tail light mashedsan mateo, raining heavy, emptypark the car, food and clothes, plentydark distance, rainstorm, pitch blacklast streetlight, slip fall, muddy tracklittle shack, rainwater, tin rooflook for candles, flicker wick, piles of booksmoonlight on the slant roof greatparadise, on a misty mountain range Ode to a small Mexican village in the mountains of Oaxaca


  • FULL WOLF

    FULL WOLF

    deep grey sea, big moon blackstorm in torment, fang’d attackwind whipped dunes, sands flung fartravellers jumping out the carmountain howl, hairs on neckpurple sky black silhouettebroiling clouds, snake-crack thunderfull wolf all black, runs on hungertownsfolk shaking, windows shutteredcold wet sand in drains and gutterswolf paw wolf claw deep impressionshadowmouth seaslops shouts aggressioncrashing crazy, rhumspent piratesdriving us from wet to drynesssmugglers cove, candles spittingtaking swigs with bits of grit in every question a statementevery action a threatlaugh loud, look outslit throat – death Paranoia, wolves, the sea, the moon…


  • RHUM SCUFFLE

    RHUM SCUFFLE

    the drink slips down andgrips on the bellythe bloods rush quick andtongues are brandisheddeftsome parry andsparks spin offwardwe sheathe and step backglare eye steadyred-faced but nored blood drawnclothes torn but we’restill not cross-eyedcross within buthonour to the enemywe mop our brows andsmile fake friendlyfilling up lungs, with anod continuemaking a stake toplunge right in youa lash and smashand slap and skewerdredging up jibes from thedarkest sewersuddenly, one of usfalls down laughingyou hate that face and thereis no maskingyou step on the neck and youwatch him gaspinghis final word is:careless rasping…oh shit fuck, ididn’t mean to kill himi never meant bad…


  • BLYND MYND

    BLYND MYND

    ebony head for a day and a halfi went on walks to dissipatea little luck, but still no laughwooden head won’t resonatedon’t include me,be rude to me,feud with me,or be crude with meplease don’t touch medon’t stroke me or joke with mei’m not laughing smirkingdoesn’t mean i’m hurtingi’m just bored and tired andwired into the whitemy mind is blind and heavyand dense like drifting wood it doesn’tmean i’m bad or good or sinkingthinking dark tormented thoughtsi’m simply floating bloatedwaiting for an island witha shoreline, simply floatingbloated waiting foran island with a shore. after self-diagnosing myself with some light autism, there…


  • HIDDEN PYRAMID

    HIDDEN PYRAMID

    i don’t mind but you moundwhen i dug for truth and i founda hidden pyramida pyramid all hidpoking up through the groundto my right is the shorei looked left and i sawa volcano with asmoke haloand a red hot chilli hot corea yellow daffodilsplattered in blooda field in francepuddled in muda warm green seaa floating breathswinging hamaca;pregnant death i told my friend about my dream, and it was about pregnant death. i didn’t know what it meant, but i woke up with this phrase in my mind: pregnant death.really? he said. that’s wierd. my sister just had a miscarriage back…


  • THE BEACH FILLS UP MY TOES

    THE BEACH FILLS UP MY TOES

    the beach fills up my toesthe sunball slowly goesthe clouds a-pinken sweetlythe sea-breeze wheezy blowsfriendships built on sandgrains and granules andseashell shards and sweating beercanscement the new-formed bandthoughts want to be heardbut don’t support the wordstumbled mumbled sentenceslike broken-throated birdsthe eyes of night alivethe darkness is a beautywe dig and dive and stretch and strivelike seedlings we get rooty This poem is about sitting on the beach with friends. I remember the moment exactly. I remember the shirt i was wearing. This was around the time the nightmare started…


  • MOTHERS

    MOTHERS

    the mother screams in painthe sheets are wet like raina bloody screaming mess expelledand upside-down by ankles held…with big bright eyes and light soft hairholding on to legs of chairwhen things fearful are detectedlift and hug and kiss expected…in all the street there’s no disputeeverybody says she’s cuteconfident in song and dancedoted on by all her aunts…growing awareness of her selffacial features of an elfharmless words they may cause shamea cult of friendship makes its claim…marching strictly to the grocerssticking up her walls with postersresponsible for all the youngsterscombing hair and scaring monsters…finding boy and dreaming sweetlyliving in her love…


  • I AM RAT

    I AM RAT

    i am ratrunnersniffer you will diei won’tdiffer glare at meyou will notlike me snaring meyou try tofight me i existwhen yousee me when you don’tyou can’tconceive me i am ratsniffingsnot you will diei willnot the soul of the rat includes every rat, every living and dead rat plus every dream and thought of rat, plus every incantation and painting and poem depicting rat. all these things together make up the soul of the rat. rat doesn’t care what you think. these poems that i will upload are a selection from my poemario number 3 named MEXICO. they were written 2014-2015…


  • A BURNING FISH

    A BURNING FISH

    i was sitting on holy mountain tending my holy sheep when down from the skies swam a burning fish and asked me if i was asleep i shook my head quite loosely like a bag of walnut shells he kissed me quick and singed my lips i hollered like a bell i hollered till they heard me as in heaven as in hell he bade me calm, procured a balm and wished me very well i took one look on the raging seas i assessed the ocean wide i whispered a wish to the flaming fish to turn all brine…


  • 8:38

    8:38

    i’ve reached the ideal: 8:38 not too early and not too late sit upon a dead tree, listen to the sounds of fair-day music on the football grounds survey the woods from a mossy throne moonlight shattered like broken bone 8:38 is still my favourite numerological (twice-repeating) timestamp in the 12 hour clock. whenever i catch it it’s a sign. a sign of good hope. a sign of good intention.


  • DOG

    DOG

    i’m a dog with a forehead a sorehead dog pat my brow and my brains will grow let me sniff your fingers i’m a dog with a longnose i inhale the memories between your toes i once had a nightmare where you died i swish my tail when i’m by your side curl up on the sofa i could sleep till tomorrow i dig my bone in a permanent furrow this is merely a poem that copies a rhyme i liked. brow and grow. an iconic rhyme. more like this please.


  • ANOTHER PASSAGE TO THE WOODS

    ANOTHER PASSAGE TO THE WOODS

    another passage through the woods another passage to the woods the bleak winter is caving in the snowdrops pop their heads again the wily deer that can’t be found leave hoof prints on the soggy ground the river runs past sad and brown i throw it a stick but it just sinks down and the muddy bog holds the muddy dog and the rotten log and the torrid fog like long spindly fingers the trees reach up they fall and cross over like coded good luck i climb through their bodies and weave through the living my steps fill my…


  • EVERY BIRTH

    EVERY BIRTH

    every birth is a rebirth every garden an eden each person is old earth every death is a freedom deceased meat and vegetable matter help us get a little fatter blood placenta, piles of dung the sullied beds from where we sprung a chicken’s breast is so delicious the slaughterhouse is where it’s sliced a quiet flower is so precious your fertile shit is where it’s lifed trying to be a good daoist and recognise paradoxes in my mind.


  • FROONING

    FROONING

    freely frooning in my sleep, i fear not the frost, but in this flimsy and forbidding foundry, a formidable phalanx of philanthropists forbiddenly formulate faux farms, festering farcicle frost for fame, freedom and fun. frowningly, the freak frogfish from afar were finally unfrozen. they flew through the ozone no go zone, and familied frillions of fishpoles. the flippery type. the factional flashmob type. we fret, we fear, we dred, we drear. flat fins and flippers, glimpses of fingery feet, flicking their fly-lickers, frogfish in foggy night streets. fazed or unfazed. folk are fed on. the fortunate few fracture their brainframes,…


  • DISHWASHER REPRESENT

    DISHWASHER REPRESENT

    standing in a kitchen washing up pots time to kill so i sit down lots lowest member of the staff no point denying man now i’ll try my hand at a yellowy frying pan if i say it’s for the dollar it would sound like i’m lying man my life in a kitch and i feel like a dying man dishwasher represent the tears of a crying man still won’t flush the yellow yolk from the frying pan i remember showing this poem to my friend and he grimaced and said: hardest job in the world, and he made it…


  • SOUF COAS

    SOUF COAS

    souf coas laid back homespun rhyme style hardened, fired and top like rooftile charcoal makers butchers and bakers dance to this muthafucking music we makers woodmen good men shep-herds and sheep-hounds trance in the muddy puddle pit of the pigpound so flip frown, mucka, go get a round. and get drowned. with outta town clowns pale ale, stale ale, ouse booze you choose put it in a bottle on the way to the noose we breaking down doors and letting loose roars on all fours; all claws and jaws i flitter like a fluttermouse, sting like a jasper i’ll tell…


  • LUNNUN

    LUNNUN

    when i walked out one rainy grey midsummers morning i planned to walk to lunnun town that city so alluring i got my geese some tarmac shoes to lead us to temptation or to take us up to high barnett to profit from inflation i hooked a bag upon my back i cut mysel’ a stick i bid goodbye to ma and pa and set off something brisk through forests fields and hamlets towards the city smoke the jiggered deer jumped roman roads and holy toads did croak the fret rolled up the downs i trod salting grass for ship…


  • FASHION FROSTED

    FASHION FROSTED

    fashion frosted breastplateeager added toenailseven holy oak holesthreaded with a fox tailslumming like a Richepiggbroken oily fishstickwrestle training undergroundezra thor and thunder poundarse hole bum holearse eye shit holeeye brown itch bitchripped raw mud floorrotten cotton twist wristdripped drizzly fizzling redsauce on a main courseof more horseinkjet counter-metby a finless fighterjettabernacle typewriterburn a bubble with a lightereating all the gobblegooksmoking all the ciggle smellpork and pringle pimm’s puketonight is my show and tellwords are broken bird wingssling ‘em in a knapsackyou can take a fat catkick him up like haky sackwhen you kick it kick it quickwatch it shred like…


  • RICKETY LANE

    RICKETY LANE

    me dog walk down old rickety lane new boots give my heelbone pain stopped short by four five live cow hobby farmer turns saying: not right now pup-dog tongue lolls, she’s intrigued dashes in dashes out, farmer’s peeved don’t want a fight so we avoid it find the stream and walk beside it sunshine breaks through the tree and the leaf we tread the earthfloor deep beneath throwstick, throwstick; dog go get hot under collar till she get wet land in meadow land, meadow of love sun piles down from the clouds above i throw then sit down to scan…


  • REDDISH AND GOLD ROOM

    REDDISH AND GOLD ROOM

    Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published lying down in a room of reddish and gold another minute flies off another minute old chest is hollow like a birdcage cathedral in a desertside town and the sign says sold reddish and gold room seacity view hurricane stormbrew blacks turn blue floods are cometh and the water rises sweeping, cleaning remade new sitting on a bunk in a cold white light window wet and bird in flight open a computer up like a ribcage feeding on the bright black light of the night this is an ode…


  • FOOT STRAIN

    FOOT STRAIN

    Text within this block will maintain its original spacing when published alarm at 9:30, wake at 8:30, stretch in bed, go downstairs to kitchen, make omelette, give a quarter to a friend, eat the rest, alarm sounds, cycle to uni, shuffle the word order of an essay, print it, fuck around, go to the bar, glance at a man giggling to himself, smoke a joint, go back in, slice an orange, eat it then, go through, the print out, crossing shit, out, daniel walks up saying hey how’s it going, fast talking scurry walking you know what i mean man,…


  • THE CLUB

    THE CLUB

    through forests and fogs through thickets and thin i trek through the country to get to the din but when i get to the club they don’t let me in cos i take the wrong drug and i don’t want to sing for my supper or a beer from a big bouncer thug but i got to get around him to get into the club though i don’t know where to go once i get inside the club some get in to the club and sit down and some go straight to the bar buy a round and some take…


  • THE WATERS IN THEIR WILD COURSE WARNED ME

    THE WATERS IN THEIR WILD COURSE WARNED ME

    the waters in their wild course warned me; begins the book of history snakes and dragons sit upon the floodland lowlanders are living in the trees highlanders have taken to the uplands digging out the mountains to make caves the birds and beasts and savage dangerous creatures are constricted to the land above the waves the kingdom in the middle inundated shun recruited yao for to employ reduce these wild waters into order drive the snakes and dragons with your ploy the waters of the jiang, the huai and the he and the han the dangers and obstructions being removed;…


  • BEAUTIFRAGILOUS

    BEAUTIFRAGILOUS

    choose a browning stunted treeplace a ring of weeds therebless it as it rots and dieswatch the burrs shoot out and risebeautifragilous tree stalk caught in the windthe wind’ll knock you over if you stand too thinthe ground will eat you up if the wind dies downthe tree stalk shivered as the sunshine grinnedhow can i help you without any water?how can i get there without my foots?take this seedling to be your daughtertouch this future with your rootsbeautifragilous music heard in the breezetrees are up a-rustling as it ripples through the leavesa whistle from a cloud would persuade you…


  • LIKE

    LIKE

    i like that loosely falling hair lightly tucked behind the ear that makes the wind seem so severe in the early morning light i like that pretty pointed finger maybe pointing at a thing or maybe heavy with a ring like a dewy blade of grass i like that chunky laden flavour that swings about with your behaviour like the fragrance of arabia like the jasmine of japan i feel a softly surging force that could calm a nervous horse i feel my heartblood gently course when my wars are in your hand i like your cheeks that billow out…


  • CYCLING HOME

    CYCLING HOME

    the following poems are from my london poems from 2011 to 2014 i just bought a new back wheel for my tall and sturdy bike and riding back from a party i got hit by a big white truck i was cycling by the curb and the truck came hurtling up i had the space of a meter or more but i quickly lost that gap suddenly i felt it- a crunching of the wheel i shouted in anglo-saxon: wehey! as i leapt from the speeding frame i fell into a running roll and i stood and turned around my…


  • MUGGING in PARIS by NIGHT

    MUGGING in PARIS by NIGHT

    hello, i’d like to offer this story of when i was studying in london in 2010, and a french girl i liked couldn’t make her channel tunnel train ticket back to france so she gave the ticket to me. and so i went to paris for a few days and tried my hardest to be bohemian. enjoy, waby


  • ON BEING COLD

    ON BEING COLD

    freshest of winds, tingling skin hair is being spat out and swallowed back in wind-water cry from the small of the eye tear from the tear duct streams to the ear bloodblister lips, fingerless fingertips the creature the cold is, laughs as it whips a nugget of warm in the pit of the arm dig down into it and smother the palm this poem has a nice title, i think


  • DRE:AM POEM

    DRE:AM POEM

    why aren’t i a hero?isn’t everybody a hero?no! nobody’s a hero!a lady came in and spoke chinesei was burning to ask her this question:are you the rocks and sand beneath my feet?yes, we are the rocks and sand. i had a few dre:am poems in china that explored an interesting surreal side of life. i always enjoyed have a dre:am poem


  • BEIJING DRE:AMS

    BEIJING DRE:AMS

    beijing is living in pink and grey. people are as slow as their cold fingers. rub at them on the metro. rub at them on the bus. all the buildings are grey, save for the pink ones. housing is pink or grey, skyscrapers are grey, with shimmers of pink. the mists are a deathly grey that swallow every horizon, and swallow the buildings. the streets are grey as tarmac is grey and the pavement is grey as paving stones are grey. the sun is big and pink, in the grey sky, or big and bloody, in the pink sky. the…


  • CALLUSED HAND

    CALLUSED HAND

    from your old callused hand to the last living strand of hair that sprouts feebly like black sunbaked seaweed with earlobes enormous and eyeballs a-milky these wrinkles put dimples all over your flesh crawling in mongst the shadows of large concrete buildings and rooting the gutter for edible matter which is torn in your hands by pain-quaking fingers and prodded and poked into toothless dark places where bleeding black gums weary of smiling pound out the mixture into acid bile i pity the monster that crawls from your lips when your life is no longer and your tongue is for…


  • LAST DAY IN OASIS TOWN, DESERT

    LAST DAY IN OASIS TOWN, DESERT

    -the wind was seething, heavy. -after waking, and gazing at the pummelled window -i pulled my patchwork desert gear into a bag. -i borrowed some sandals, a bike, and ate a healthy bowl of noodle. -then peddled scowling at the wind. -in the town, in the open maze of buildings, -the sands were kept at bay. -but i rode out: north and west and then south after a bit. -i pushed through the stinging screaming, -past great shallow rivers, dust roads, donkey carts, snipped and snatched dialogues. desert gear: -a cloth cap pulled low -sunglasses -a palestinian chequered scarf -on…


  • SKP

    SKP

    the hat was a little too smug the morning turned into a bug with my freehand i waveddown a fastspeeding car and poured into the door from a jug the morning incredibly thin the sun scuttled up with a grin the black leather bag with its money and buckles hung grasped by the scruff in the wind the driver spun round in his seat controlling the beast with his feet his face looked sarcastic but covered with plastic his tung was a sprung slab of meat i was sprawled in the back of the cab like a lazy and arrogant…


  • FOLLOW THE WEED SMOKE

    FOLLOW THE WEED SMOKE

    follow the weed smoke. here 3 boys sit on a bench by a fence in a field with a hedge and a road and a row of young houses they are grinning they are talking they get serious somewhere walking then they joke when they smoke follow the weed smoke. here’s a girlfriend with a boyfriend rolling joints up in the morning on the bed by open window sunlight streaming through the curling silky grey and white and swirling from the ember to the ashtray undulating upward cascade follow the weed smoke. carpenter stands under awnings sawdust falls like stardust…


  • TREE

    TREE

    the soul of my feet kiss the seat of the sky my head buried deep as a bone my arms splayed akimbo, away from my side my trunk is a gnarly old throne a child sits under my leafy green shade drinking the juice from a lime the crust is my college, i suck dirt for knowledge my leaves scrape a path through time


  • HORSE

    HORSE

    enter the field of the galloping stallionkicking up mud like a young rapscallionclods of mud in the clean cut airnostrils flicker while the white eyes glareflaming mane and thumping legswarily edge back, back to the hedgeviolin bow tail, violin wailhoofprint, horseshit, horseshoe trailstrange thing with the wigwam skinbucktooth beast with the habsburg chinhorse in the gorsehorse on the heathhorsey breath mingles overhorse mouth teethenter the field of the galloping stallion i roughly consider this poem the first ever poem i wrote, or at least the first poem i kept. it begins my poetry book poemario 1. i still remember the…


  • IMMIGRANT

    IMMIGRANT

    this song is dedicated to all migrants, immigrants, emigrants, nomads, refugees, and foreigners. may your wondering feet take you where you need to be and may the rabid forces of border control and beaurocracy disappear from your holy lives. lyrics: .. far away on another continentshe looked up at the stars, hand on her heart, she said:god knows another onewith a head on her shoulders on the land she was born of ancient immigrantsoutside of the lawif you can call that a law, they said:here comes another onewith fists like potatoes on the land spinning things and twisting things and…


  • Beast

    Beast

    the long man of wilmington is this guy on this hill who carries two sticks or staves or spears or dowsing rods and he tells of solstice and watches over the people. good luck, people.


  • nUBE aZUL – letras en español

    nUBE aZUL – letras en español

    mis letras a español, de los albumes the cloud (LA NUBE) y my blue tempers (MIS TEMPERAMENTOS AZULES). traducciones por el mismisimo güeivi éliot con ayuda de meli. burning hot coffeea swanmountain sea & desert treepoisonsnowliverrollerlightning songbenidorm todaydark eyesst. catherineella gravitygood morninghimalayablues noirdrugstxtpinstripe trousersmirrorblack sheep moanpequeño huracántrainno feelings + little fish BURNING HOT COFFEE BURNING HOT COFFEE 10:59 13/08/2020 when i wake upon the good side of my bedon the good side of my bedon the good side of my headi rememberthe bad things that you saidthe bad things that you saidthe bad things in my headand a smile breaks…


  • the PETROGLYPH.

    the PETROGLYPH.

    i stalk past broken pines, past stonewall partitions swallowed by moss, past the young oaks of autumn with rust in their leaves, their bodies skewed and contorted, past barrel-chested chestnuts, almost-forgotten giants, their torsos thickset and stocky, their trunks hacked and pruned and farmed continuously for hundreds of years, by long chains of generations, untill they are wild beasts of the abandoned land, boulder-like, their bark spiralling with the years, long rebellious antlers sprouting from their crowns, the ground strewn with their spiky offspring;the sweet nutrients of the ancient ones. and through the trees i spy it;like a breaching whale,…


  • Ripple-Watching

    Ripple-Watching

    7 sep 2024 ripple-watching a stone thrown in a slow fish shows his slicing fin the circles move through solid time the trees reflect in broken lines the branches climb the waves come close they touch the land the meaning grows buried in my heart my problem buried in my chest the truth opening my eyes to spot them my old age, my death, my youth the ripples like a gong of water the water is my body calm the ageless answers of the morning turn my aimless body warm i love this life, these swallows dancing love is green…


  • Diario #1 de Amanda Trip

    Diario #1 de Amanda Trip

    Este diario fue escrita por la gran escritora y amiga mía Amanda Trip, sobre sus viajes por centro America. Good read! En 10 días voy a estar en la península de Yucatán. Me costó tomar la decisión porque la relación con M es un vaivén. Nuestras conversaciones diarias … diario #1


  • OLD WORLD

    OLD WORLD

    old world is a book about the future.old world is a book about time.old world is a book about the end of the world. old world is a series of tales woven through 5 time-inverted chapters. it is labyrinthian and weighted and geometrical; a kaleidoscopic cast of characters revolve like a strange machine around a world full of symbolism and surrealism. old world is a science fiction story and a love story. it is a story about imagination, control and rebellion. old world spans time like a spiderweb. old world takes place during 1 year or 5 seasons, staggered in…


  • When…

    When…

    when i began to learn to love is when i learnt to live with love and all i had was everything though all of things was not enough so off i took in search of things and things i found them everywhere and everywhere was not a place and anyone was not a face so back i went to from whence i came to the land of soot and mud and rain and back i went and back again to the land of soot and mud and rain


  • 7 COLOURS

    7 COLOURS

    7 COLOURS is a long text that was a catharsis, an exorcism of my 7 selves. once i had located them inside myself, i allowed them to speak and express their personalities, their fears and desires, and they took the form of 7 colours. sometimes the speaking voice was my own, speaking about the colour, or to the colour, and other times the narration was being done by something else entirely. at times the colours spoke up as individuals, and other times the colours spoke as different tribes, like flags representing a nation, an identity, a religion. these tribes existed…


  • 10 poemarios

    10 poemarios

    I completed these 10 poemarios, which are hand-made books filled with my texts and stories and drawings photos and rimes and non-rimes, written over the years. They are organised by chapters of roughly where i was based during each phase of my life and although the titles are kind of arbitrary since i moved around a lot inside each of those chapters, one key unchanging element to these booklets (around 50 – 100 pages each) is the chronology. For some reason i have a mania for maintaining the chronology of these things, so I’ve respected that to the end. I…


  • The Destroying of the Super Ego

    The Destroying of the Super Ego

    When i was a child I made myself a castle In the sand The tides came I reinforced it With sand The winds blew I cemented it With sand I dug canals To irrigate it I planted flags To commemorate it; I got lost In labyrinths I left myself there Roaming the corridors And banging the doors Circulating the intricacies I could no longer see The sea nor horizon The beach goers The birds The stars and well I woke up As if from a heady dream I rolled and plunged my fist Through its soft walls I heeled through…


  • A Song about The Beast

    A Song about The Beast

    the beast is the unknown, the shadow self, the empty underbelly of life, the unwanted emotions, the supine feminine, the fear, the monsters, the nightmares, the anxieties, the paranoid daydreams, the void, the abyss, the subconscious sickness, the buried horrors, the traumas, the tremors, the illusory world, maya, the devils, the evils, saturn devouring his son, satan and the maligned spirits and unbalanced forces. the beast is what appears when you forget yourself, when your programs kick in and tie you into your addicted and repetitive thoughts and actions of who you think you are, of the laughing self, the…


  • A Poem about The Day

    A Poem about The Day

    Sunshine and a fresh breeze But i bend to a muddy puddle Where the mud lays silted and unmoving And the water looks calm and clean enough To drink And no rain but rain; As the puddle blooms and ripples By the lightest of raindrops And the grass still wet And the sky is blue and molten silver… On the other hill The dark pine forest Looks hungry


  • HIMALAYA

    TRAFFIC ISLAND CASTAWAYSKIES ARE OvERCAST & GREYSHUFFLING DOwN THESE CITY STREETSbillboards BATTLING OVER mePushing THROUGH THE SMoKE & WINDi FEEL THeir STORIES in My SkinAN ENDLESS STREAM OF SLICK MAcHINESTHAT STRESSES & DISCOMFORTS MESUN goes DOWN & I’m So TIREDI CANT SLEEP MY BRAIN IS WIREDTHERES A buzzing in my EaRsFAR AWAY + GETTING NeARTHE SILENCE IS DEAFENINGFRONT DOOR ISNT WELCOMINGIm CRAWLING To MY TV& NONE oF MY FRIENDS ARE CALLING IM DOING FINEDoINg timeSTRUGGUNG TO SLEEPPullING TeETHIN MY PREAMSANIMALS eAT ME STREETS ARe DARK & EeRIEMy eYES ARe DulL & BLEARYIM FEEDING ON A SERIESOF PIXELATED MEMORIESSITTING IN A…


  • Gao Xingjiang – One Man’s Bible

    Gao Xingjiang – One Man’s Bible

    gao xingjiang is abstract and misty and protective and distant, but also slowly rewarding and fulfilling. soul mountain by him is a book i read years ago and often thought about. he lived through the chinese revolution and maintained an artistic spirit under a guise of standard straightforward citizen. in this book he grudgingly goes back into his past and reviews his youth. he is a a character, even to himself, he calls himself you. we learn about your beijing years, and your exodus exile to a mountain village to become a hermit scholar in the classic tradition of unwanted…


  • My Old Website

    My Old Website

    I’d like to say good bye to this old website design. It is original and i made it completely myself, with no idea of how to code but i did it anyway. Many of these texts feel obsolete to me now, but many more have been edited, improved and made even more beautiful here. The project is in movement. Still, I’ll be sad to see the old style go, it has an old Windows charm all of its own… (the folders were button icons – it was a whole windows operating system written for the internet in html. in each…


  • New bookmarks page uploaded

    New bookmarks page uploaded

    hello, i have a page on my site that i’m excited to share. it’s a project that has been in the making for decades, and it has finally come together. i’ve been curating this list and typing up these little fragments from old peeling notebooks which have come with me over the years and over the seas in beaten up suitcases to arrive here now… this extensive list can serve more as a mood board than a thing to finish. it is a place to scroll through in a distracted way with no set intention. i’m just very happy to…


  • New Song Uploaded: Ouse River BLues

    New Song Uploaded: Ouse River BLues

    I am sharing this upload of an old song I made when my old town, which sits in the swampy marshlands, flooded over back in the year 2000. The song is filled with little references which I found funny or interesting at the time: – “I walked on up the river where the lady poet died…” – The lady poet I’m talking about was Virginia Woolf who was not a poet but she did drown herself in the river there. This book talks about virginia woolfe’s relationship to the river and to water and water as a personal metaphor for…


  • A Litany

    A Litany

    i want to share a poem i just uploaded. it’s a poem i’ve had hanging around for years on this long taped-together fold-out. I don’t know what it means, nor what possessed me to write it, make it, to research it and to cut it up and tape it all together, but here we have it. It’s an epic diognostic, a shopping list of things to avoid, a dictionary of illness, repulsion spell, a doctor’s litany.


  • Wrath of God

    Wrath of God

    the flow-rising river is grounding felicity below, so mark steel caps and angel crosses against losses, captain, for your strength is devoured by humidity, corroded by our loving waters… and don’t look back into my eyes, doña of the river; my gaze is colonial and fierce. my brutal eyeballs score no mercy, least not on your tempered blades, your tapered shoulders, naked of slip, and from behind the leaf i watch, also, as fellow soldiers are run into the high trees like loose blood.


  • Train

    Train

    Scuttling and screaming Grey sky dreaming The beggar man shuffling Down carriages for nothing Train doors chirping Beggar man hurting Organs bruised and buried by life Knife-like lurking Train tracks cold and glitter cut dirty Concrete skirting Vanishing passages Flowing souls Burning effigies Tubular cacophony A girl looking back at me Where do we go?


  • Collect

    Collect

    Visions And place them Thoroughly Within The game intrepid’s Loose and leafy Fields of your mind’s own Eye, Stacked elf-like Between Iron And/or Ore